Only certain people would understand how does it feel to loose person you expect to always have your back. This person has gone for along time. Many years before you realize his existence means a lot. He used to stay but he let only his body appeared. You never knew his soul, never knew what he really wanted. He always kept silent, especially before he left. It made you barely knew him but from other's story. And now he's gone already... He's somewhere you've never been for a long time. You miss him yet you can't handle your abstruse feelings. And now he becomes a reason for you to burst into tears every month. He becomes somebody you silently blame for all bad things happened. Yeap you keep it in silent because you are deeply missing him in the same time. You, you are missing a person that supposed to always have your back. Questioning why did he leave you surviving all alone.
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As starting a new semester, i moved to another apartment around campus and having new housemates as a routine every year. This year my housemates are mostly turkish (as always honestly lmao) But different than previous years, most of them speak english fluently.
We're 6 people living in typically turkish apartment close to campus (used to be 7 actually because one of them moved to campus dormitory recently) and i really get along with them. Only 2 of them are still in preparatory school learning english starting from A1 which means they only speak turkish now. (Lucky me i speak turkish so we don't have any miscommunication. Alhamdulillah) However others are turkish who have lived abroad in USA, Holland and Georgia and the rest are me and a girl from Columbia. I think this is what make us get along vey well as we share the same struggle life as we're living abroad in Turkey now. Honestly, Having housemates never been this fun as we are quite close towards each others, considering to my previous house that i only could get along only with my roommate. But here, we do silly things together like watching some funny vines while having dinner, singing some the Beatles songs while playing the guitar and piano all along in the midnight and the best part is we keep doing the prayers together. We wake up each other for Fajr prayers, my roomie always ask me whether i did Isya prayers before i sleep (she's the one who came from Netherlands and always having her mom calling her for Fajr prayers so we wouldn't miss it). Mashallah alhamdulillah, my parents must be happy if they could see me living with good people here. Oh yeah actually i wanna tell you something. There's a moment that hit my head and make me think about what i've been doing in my entire life (exaggerating lol) . It was Sunday night and my cooking day. I couldn't cook that day so i ordered Pizza. All my housemates were so happy to see me coming home with 2 big boxes of Pizza. I entered the kitchen and started preparing the drinks while the girls were serving the pizza. Each of us got more than 2 slices and we almost get them finished until one of my friend asked me whether i check the halal label on the box. Wait, halal label on a pizza box? In Turkey? How come the non-halal foods are traded in the majority muslim population country? Well, as i said i couldn't find the label, some of them started to be confuse whether to eat or not. I knew they couldn't handle the eager to eat the pizza (because i've made them starving lol) but they didn't want to eat non-halal foods as well. And in my conclusion, i think they feel bad because i'm the one who buy the pizza, then they keep eating them by peeling up the meat part from pizza and start to eat the rest cheese, olive etc. Some words for this.... "Wita, have you ever bee considering the food you eat? When your Thai friend offer you Tom-yam that she cooked using special recipe from her country or when you eat a bucket of chicken in Popeye or a burger in Burger King. Have you ever thought whether those foods are halal or not? Do you really care about the halal-ness of the food you eat?" Okay my friends sounds so religious (yes they are) but don't ever think they are those girls who wear very big scarf, abaya etc. only some of them wearing scarf and others couldn't because of some political issues (i'm sorry i can't tell more due to the confidentiality about this). Yeah that's the point that i wanna talk actually. I was surprised by my friend's consideration about halal food while their 'appearance' is not showing them as 'religious enough' as people that always giving comments about other muslimah's scarf that is not long enough to cover the front part. (Wait wait please don't get me wrong. I'm not saying long scarf is not important but lemme continue my phrase...) That halal-labeled-pizza-moment just gave me a smooth reminder that we should be more considered about the foods we eat. That is important for us as a muslim to be more careful about this issue. Moreover, Never judge others as "not religious enough" because of their appearance. Because everything needs process and let's focus on the process we made for ourselves. Let's say you might be already in the Level 20, so let's be focus on reaching another higher level without underestimating others who are still in Level 3. Well, without any intention to offend or insult anybody, here I just want to write a reflection journal after months. For further information about Halal-food, you can search it through this youtube link below... http://youtu.be/yO-XaMku7uc Best regards, Wita Koto.
1. Welcoming Party for New Indonesian Students in Ankara. Finally met some of my good friends after weeks. Actually I was planning not to come to the party but Ute, one of my closest friend insisted me to come as she said i need to have some social life with my indonesian friends. And i'm glad that i came because i met many of my old friends. We also had fun at that day but the funny thing is the new comers are only 6 people while us who welcoming them probably more than 25 people. Rather than a welcoming party, i prefer to call it as reunion party tho... 2. Went to Istanbul for 2 days. The reason i went to Istanbul is actually because of my friend Dida. I haven't met her for more than a year since last summer holiday in 2014. We are a good friend but barely talk because we don't like texting each other that much but when we meet we won't stop talking about a lot of things. Yeah, That's what a good friend means to me. I've got a lot of surprises from her but the most surprising thing is when she told me that she'll get married this summer without having me in her wedding because i was staying in Istanbul during summer. Man! How could she did that to me LOL. I'm the one who always want to marry in 21 but she is the one who get it first and here i'm still being faith with a single life. That's not fair.... (Lol kidding, i'm not into dating and i used to it anyway so i'm cooI.) Well, I've lost one precious moment with her already So, i promised her to come and have a visit this October before she go back for good to Indonesia this winter as she will finish her college soon. So this me with my gurl. Guess which one is Dida?? it seems like we're 4 people but actually we're 5. Haha Not the guy behind me was counted but.... You know what i mean? Yeah another one is in Dida's tummy. We'll be an aunty soon. Alhamdulillah. And another reason is i came for a conference held by PPI Istanbul. These are some picture i took... I didn't took a lot because i was sooo focus listening the lectures (lying...) LOL. 3. Ummi Dessy Farewell Party. I came back to Ankara on Sunday morning in 1st of November. I arrived with Intan at 9 am after catching up the bus at 03:30 am from Istanbul. It was really short vacation in Istanbul as i feel like i did nothing there besides strolling down Eminonu in Saturday night while Intan was having a meeting with her student organization. Well, so here are some pictures of Ummi Dessy and Family Farewell Party. It's so weird to see us smiling in the picture while actually we were so sad because she and her family going for good to Indonesia. 4. Celebrating My Birthday I got a lot of birthday surprises from my friends, for the first time in my life i've got 5 cakes. i expected nothing from my friends actually so it really surprised me when i get them around me in my birthday.
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